Old Fears

When I arrived America, everything is so fresh to me. Because it was my first time leaving home and going to another country, I always felt excited most of the time. Whereas, there was one thing that I always afraid, which is talking with American.

People say that American people are friendly. That is true. Therefore, when they ask me something or just talk with me but I totally don't understand, I feel so embarrass. I still remember there was one time I went shopping and bought a clothes in a store. I waited for checking out in a long line. Finally, it was my turn, so I just stood close to the checkout counter, and said "Hi" to that cashier. He looked at me for a second, and suddenly began to talk. I totally remembered his face with a big smile. He was so friendly, and talked a lot. Unfortunately, he spoke so fast that I couldn't understand even a word. I stood there and feel quite nerous. My face suddenly turned red, and I really didn't know what I should say. I had no choice, so I said:"Sorry, my English is not good." He was a little shocked with a weird expression. "Uh.....ok......", he said. After checkout, I left to that store. I felt bad, really bad, because I don't understand why I had such a bad response.

From then on, I baraly talked with any American people even my teachers. On campus, if I want to buy a coffee or some food, I alway ask my classmates to help me. If I have to call some place, I always ask teachers to help me even my teacher said I could handle these. I know if I want to practice English, I should talk a lot. But I just can't forget that feeling.

However, at the begining of this semester, I tell myself I should change. So I talk with my classmates and Americans. I try to overcome my fears. Yesterday, I helped an American girl to get her mails. We just had a small talk, but I felt so happy because I think that fear is leaving me now. From now on, I really want to face my fear and change this situation.